I broke down...and cried

and yelled at my kids.

hArith slept with us last nite coz pAh was not around. He woke up middle of the night crying out loud (not to mentioned putting him to sleep was also a chaos) which woke the other two up. uZAir was pacifiying the whole nite..so obviously b**by ku kering kontang when he wanted milk to put him back to sleep! Thus he joined hArith screaming and crying their lung out which of course woke athirAh up and joined the "choir" group.

All 3 were awake and wanted me to put them to sleep. so melekat mengendel to me. uZAir obviously wanted me bcoz of my b**rby, by having him on my side i can't put the other two to sleep. But bcoz my b**by was empty, that made uZAir screamed even louder. I failed to soothe any of them...which ended me me joining them crying....YES i cried coz i failed.

Lucky thing syauQi was around. He took uZAir away while i continue trying to put hArith to sleep. He was being fickle minded, one minute he pointed up wanting to sleep upstairs in my parents room. But the moment I brought him up, he get off the bed and pointed to go down. So We ended up going up and down like 4 times and he finally sleep in my mom's room with my sister accompany him. Then I had another 2 "mission" to be completed..to put athirAh and uZAir to sleep. I let uZAir pacify on me again while athirAh slept next to me hugging on my hand. Bout 5 mins later, Hanah came down to inform hArith awake and started crying again. I was with the other two so I left syauQi to handle him....

From what had happened last nite, it made me ponder...is it true wat grown up (i mean those yg dah jadi grandparents) been telling me, that once ur child sleepss with grandparents...forever they want to sleep with their grandparents. On top of tat my dad kept telling me don't blame them if my son doesn't want to move with us when we decided to move to our own house....