Twenty Six

It is a number that represent me as of today. I’m not too sure does that age indicate I’m (still) young or it is a number saying that I’m (already) old.

There are some 26 year old who are still enjoying life and choose not to settle down yet with the reason that they are still young. They say it is still early for commitment. So what should I feel? Am I still young or already old? Hmm..if you see a girl lady at a shopping complex walking around with 3 babies you’ll certainly label her as old won’t you? Does that make me old??

Well, for the record I got married at the age 22 (I turned 23 after 2 months I got married). Being married and was in my final year, I certainly didn’t have much time for fun. I had to juggle my time thus I stop most of my activities (and have yet able to continue any of it ever since) Well, at least hubby still had time for his counter strike back then. And now he is still able to slot in some futsal and badminton. (Well, I’m not complaining coz despite all those futsal n badminton he never abandoned his responsibility as a great father to the babies. Yup I'm not complaining but just a lil envy I guess coz I'm stuck at home...)

So today I’m 26 with 3 kids babies. Although to some the number 26 still represent ‘young’, I we (syauQi n I) on the other hand don’t get to be young. We are now surrounded with commitments in raising our 3 babies. Thus being young is no longer in our vocabulary. There are certain things that other 26 year old can do but we on the other hand can only look and envy... For instance, the other day hubster brought back a brochure of Club Med Mauritius, we could only admire the place by looking at the pictures of the broucher. And of coz wishing that we could go. These are among the things that other 26 year old could do but we can't. How do we make it possible to travel with 3 infants?

Well, even though I can’t behave like one…I still do wish to look like one. I’m still very much comfortable with just jeans and t-shirt. Really can’t wait for my babies to be able to walk so we could go to the garden and run around. Go on the swings and slides, climb all those thingy at the parks. When my babies can do that, it will be a reason for me to be young all over again. To climb and slide down with them. Or perhaps get all 3 of them to push me on the swing..heheh. Yes, get them to bring me back to my childhood time.

In those days, every evening at about 5:30 I’ll be at the playground. It was very convenient cause the field was just in front of my house. I can still remember that we (my siblings and I) lost our bicycles couple of times. We left the house with the bicycle and when it is about time for Maghrib prayer, sume kelam kabut lari balik rumah and forgotten that we left the house with our bike. Only later after taking our shower and did our prayers, someone would point out bout the bike. And only to find out it was no longer on the field when we look out the window.

And now I’m past quarter century old. I’ve learned a lot for sure. From the early days of pre-school, to primary, to secondary, to IIUM and now my time is spend mostly at home with my family; three adorable bAbies and a lovely husband. My uni days taught me a lot. Not in terms of the subjects I had chosen but uni days taught me about life itself. Of cause there were certain things I regret doing and certain things I regret NOT doing. I guess that’s part and parcel of life.
For now, I shall learn from my past and make my future better. This time around not just for me but for the whole family. Yes, at the moment I am happy and content. 14 months ago we were blessed with our miracle babies and now we have uZair joining us. =)