Should I or Should I Not?

I was browsing the net the other day and my eyes landed on this

I tried my luck by showing it to En Suami and surprisingly he wanted to buy for me. Obviously I was surprised by the offer and screaming excitedly from inside. I thought he wasn’t serious, simply said “ok” to shut me off. So I told him to have a second , third and fourth look at it. And again, to my surprise he said he already bookmark the website. Wow is he serious or what?
He left for Paris on Thursday night, he told me he will be going to the city to check out the bag. And suddenly I feel ridiculous to buy the bag where on the other hand we could use the money for other important things. It is all about priorities I guess.

Last night, I don’t know why…my h/p was in a silent mode. And usually even if it was on silent mode I had no problem hearing the vibration but last night I didn’t. When I woke up for Subuh, I saw a message from En Suami:

“uuu , ade kat kedai L* ni, harga ****euro damier canvas, nak tak” (note: uuu = you)

He even called me since I didn’t reply the msg. But I didn’t notice the call. So memang takde rezeki lar kn. Or Allah agrees with my previous thought about the priorities? (i.e future car, future house)

Well, of cause there’s this naluri of “I want, I want”…but besides priority , I also think bout those less fortunate. Need not go far, even my sedara mara ade yg less fortunate..so won’t I feel bad spending riban2 while they on the other hand have problem paying their basic amenities? Bukan ker we should help our own darah daging?

And here’s another story I been wanting to share since Raya. Up till my sister was 5 years old, we had a local maid from Kedah. She left cause her mom arrange a marriage for her. Life in kampong has been tough for her. I have visited her four times in her hometown. Each time we will bring KFC for her kids. They never ate it before. In fact the first time they had it, they told their mom “mak2, macam yang kat dalam TV tu” Anak2 die( 4 of them) siap bahagi2 berapa ketul each. One of them tu nak mkn last piece for breakfast the next day and she actually put the tupperware beside her pillow fear others might eat it in the middle of the night!! Sedih kan, how we take things for granted.

Anyway, few days before raya wecalled them up to ask their preparation. Sedih tak biler dengar die bgtau “Kat umah depan tu ada haritu jual2 baju…dapat lar beli tuk anak 2 helai..5 hinggit sehelai, tshirt je. Kurung tak beli, mahal. Anak yg besak2 tue (form 1 and 2) kumpul duit sendiri gi tempah kurung).

It really saddened me. I belikan baju tuk anak2 for raya despite they don’t understand meaning of Raya yet. But those kids who wish to have raya clothes tapi dapat t-shirt rega 5 ringgit jer! My mom and I trus pegi beli baju kurung and baju melayu one each for them and 2 helai of daily baju (tshirt with pants/jeans). Send it via pos laju. We called them to ask baju muat tak. The mother said, sume senyum panjang siap cakap “mak mak, tahun ni kita raya sakan kn!” I felt like crying when I hear their joy.

So back to the bag I was offered. Will it be fair for me to buy it. Dah lar tak keja kan, harapkn duit En suami yg belikn..hihi. Hmm, ade jer kn org yg keja and still harapkn duit suami, ni kn lg yg tak keja. Hihi. Well even if I don’t have the chance to have this bag (yet), I’m grateful enough coz for the past years n years to come my car is being paid for and from now till 30 years to come, the house will be paid for. So I can’t say En Suami didn’t get me anything aight. I have wheels to travel everyday and roof above <>my our heads soon.

Besides that I was thinking, each time I feel like buying such expensive stuff, I should pause and reflect for a while. And instead of spending it, why not just 10% from the total that I want to spend, I donate it to the needy. InsyaAllah if I do that, duit lebih berkat and hopefully Allah will blessed me (and family) with more rezeki.And by then, when I have the money to fulfill my desire, I might not feel that bad cause I’ve done my part to help the needy. InsyAllah
And InsyaAllah, Allah would help us in fulfilling our priorities too. InsyaAllah.

*tapi naluri jahat ni masih ade setan cucuk kate nak bag tu...mcm mane ek? haha