2 Years Young

It's 8:18am now. 2 years ago...at this particular time, I was on the hospital bed fighting for my babies' life.

I was already 9cm dilated but doctors were trying to stop me from giving birth as I was only in my 26 weeks gestation, And the main reason they asked me to hold on was because they didn't have enough ventilator.

I could hear they were busy making phone calls. Calls after calls were made. And finally they came to inform me, they dont have enough ventilator, thus only one baby could be with me, Another one would be send to Hospital Selayang and one would be send to Hospital Ampang.

And Alhamdulillah, it was their rezeki to be together. 2 premature babies were discharge...thus they have 2 ventilator available. The minute I heard they have enough ventilator. I alarmed the doctor, "dah tak tahan sgt ni..."

Within seconds the room was full. Doctor after doctor came in, and not to mentioned nurses after nurses. I can still remember the scenario and the conversation " okay, i'll be here with the ultrasound, monitor babies' position...u be there, and u here...u do this, u do that...and u standby here", a doctor was assigning duties.

Nurses were like cheerleaders cheering on the football field. seriously i had more than a dozen of them! "ha..betul tu...lagi lagi lagi lagii" they were full force cheering for me. but i can still remember their faces. their voices and faces were contradicting. i could see their panic faces, i could sense their fear. Yes, i was pushing it right but there were afraird of my babies' life.

At 9:05am, ahmAd hArith was born..at only 760gram.

Me: doctor bile lagi nk push?

doctor: bile awak rasa, push lah

me: dah rasa ni

doctor: okay, push mcm tadi

and at 9:11am arwah alesYa zAra was born (564grm) and again with another 6 mins interval athirAh zAhraa (600grm) was born.

However, unlike other mothers...i didnt hear my babies' cry during labour. it took me almost 3 months to hear hArith's and athirAh's cry.

They sure went through alot.


arwah alesYa pulang ke rahmatullah on the 11th June 2007 at 1:17pm

and despite my reason here, there will still be no party

mayb a makan2 at hArith's skool...